Postpartum Depression and the many different forms it can take. Anxiety, nervousness and insomnia.
Excerpt
Another weekend came and I made an
appointment for my mother and I to get makeovers at a
local department store. Matt and Bradley came with us
along with my father. We decided to go out for dinner
after. Well the previous night I again had gotten no sleep.
All I can remember is that all through the makeover I was
so anxious. It was like I could feel the blood just running
through my veins. I could not relax. We went to dinner
and I could not eat; I just could not swallow any food. My
mother would even make comments to me that she could
tell that it looked like I could not catch my breath. I was
always trying to catch my breath. I thought for sure that
night I would get some sleep. However, I did not. The
next morning, Monday, I called my doctor and told the
nurses that I had to come in. This was the end of August.
Since throughout this whole period I kept asking
myself, “Do I have postpartum depression?” I do not
think that I am “depressed.” I took a shower every day,
put on my makeup, and got on with my daily activities. I
actually kept referring back to all my pregnancy books
and looked up postpartum depression and kept reading
the meanings that they had. I just kept asking myself, “Is
this what is wrong with me?”
Read more about MY BABY’S SMILE: My Journey and Recovery Through Postpartum Depression and Beth Ann Benoliel HERE.
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